Well I went over my bank account and student loans and monthly costs and stuff and I realized I was gonna run out of money somewhere around october until the start of december where my second 13 000$ loan kicks in. I didn't need much money just 1 500ish. Now I really really didn't feel like getting a shitty part time job so I decided to keep on playing poker. Being a winning micro stakes player at about 2.5ish BB over 150k+ hands, I thought this would be a good idea. Using the party poker sign up bonus and moving up to 25NL soon enough would have been more than enough to cover the money I needed + leave me with some kind of bankroll. After my loan kicked in I could have started grinding with the goal of moving up again. What I didin't take into account was that once I started to play poker for money that I needed kinda fast and not to get better at the game, my game would suffer a lot and the downswings would not be as easy to deal with.
So it started with the switch from pokerstars to party poker, I felt kinda disoriented and semi-tilted by the new software and new look and went on a downsing. Then I went back to grind mode a little bit but after going up a little, i lose some more and then went on major tilt. Started by playing PLO, lowest was 25PLo so I played that and lost a little, so decided to switch to 100 PLO (logical move imo.) Went up to 250 then lost a full house vs full house where it was easy fold but me being tilted I could not fold, so ended up about breakeven at 100 PLO. After thinking to myself : why am I playing PLO when I have no clue how to play it, I should at least play a game I'm familiar with, I decided to play 100 NL HU. I sit vs this guy, he seems kinda tight passive, I tell myself he might be some random noob, I go check his stats on PTR, hes up 2K at a steady rate at 100NL HU. Doesn't matter I'm tilted so I decide to play anyways, end up about 50$ and I'm a little less tilted (or so I thought)
Feeling a little better I decide to go to subway, eat fresh, and come back. After being up 50$ at HU I decide that I'm obviously better than everyone and if I just run a little good I'm gonna win for sure. So I decide to play 50NL HU. First guy I meet sits down with 30 BB, doesn't rebuy, limps his button, bets small with air and bets big with the nuts + he's a calling station. Easy right? I proceed to be card dead and he runs good, he's up almost a buy-in and he says : thanks and leaves. TILTTTTTTTTTTTT
I then win some, think I'm god's gift to the game once more and then proceed to bluff a calling station and lose lots of money and tilt and tilt and tilt.
Altough I am not completely retarded and did stop myself before it was too late the end result is : Bankroll went from 480$ to 217$ (Lost some in sit n gos and tournys aswell)
At least I'm up 7$ from playing drunk 1$ blackjack.
Here are some graphs :
PLO
NL
HU only
My much nicer Pokerstars graph
I guess lesson learned, I will go try to find a shitty part time job tommorow. Will keep playing poker but only 2 tabling six max and trying to work on my game rather than grinding. Will probably leave my part time job and go back to playing only poker once my second loan kicks, reason being I really do enjoy the game and would much rather have it as a part time job than let's say Subway. On the other hand the Subway next to my appartment is looking for people and I do spend about 20-30 bucks weekly there so working there would be very + EV. Will try to find something a little bit more interesting first but probably won't.
Also schoolwise I have nooo clue what I want to do and that kinda sucks because I feel like my life is going nowhere right now.
On the brighter side of things, I had a lot of fun playing 100 PLO and HU NL + I'm 2/3 of the way to my first 50$ bonus from the sign up.
So I just used my FPP to buy-in to the big 11$ and finished 130ish, making about a hundred, my BR is now at 425 and I'm faced with what my next move should be.
I could keep on grinding stars and drop to gold star or maybe maybe platinum if I start playing 25NL soon enough and stay there or I could cash out, pay 75$ out of my own pocket and use the 500$ to sign up on party poker and grind out the 500$ sign up bonus. (And get free books) After that I'd either stay, move back to PS or move to another sign up bonus.
1. Are the sign up bonuses worth it?
2. Is there any difference in the skill level party poker vs pokerstars?
3. Any better sites I should move to? With rakeback or something cuz I know party is like stars and rakeback for those who arent at high levels of VIP is pretty bad.
4. Anything to add?
Apart from that school started, I have 3 classes only as I don't want to keep on going with Actuarial studies and I don't know what to do right now. My Japanese class seems pretty fun, too bad there was no Korean.
Dunno if it's old or w/e but just stumbled onto this video and it's pretty motivating. Altough I am currently very tired and about to go to bed I feel like putting in a 20 hour grind session. Will go to sleep first though
I'm at my 3rd shot at 10NL, first one was an agressive shot that didn't go well but I quit after being down 2 BI, second shot was at 19 BI, from 260 to 310 profit on the graph and then down to 240. Right now I hit a nice heater and am up 5 BI in only 2k hands at 10NL, gameplay wise doesn't seem to be any different than 5NL, just gotta stay focused and not tilt if i lose a couple of BI, I hit the 50$ stellar reward so I'm nicely rolled now.
